How can you be sure if someone actually likes you?
and by that I mean in a FRIENDship.
I have known my friends from back home for around seven years now, so I have pretty much assumed that they genuinely like me enough to actually want to spend time with me and just enjoy my company; that we are friends.
However, right now I’m having some issues. I’m not sure if it’s because I’m over tired and feel a bit ill right now that my brains a little out of control, but. Whenever I pose the question off-handedly “oh, but what if they hate me” they are always like “How could anyone hate you!? They definitely don’t hate you. How can someone hate you?” which is all very nice to hear, because it makes me sound like a lovely person, and makes me think that perhaps the friends I have made here do genuinely like me.
Also, I have been hanging around with them for the past 5 weeks we have been a University, and they haven’t just ditched me or anything. BUT. I don’t know? Do they keep me around just for the laughs - because I am VERY clumsy and I’m not going to lie, it’s very amusing to witness. I’m also quite expressive with my facial expressions and arm movements when I talk, which again I guess is quite funny.
BUT. Do they actually like me? like, LIKE me like me as a friend. Do they consider me as their friend, like I am considering them as my friend?
They are all invited to my birthday next Wednesday, and they keep telling me how excited they are for it. - So they must like me enough to want to come, but then are they coming just because it’s a party, or-
I don’t know. Basically, I have major issues with actually deciding whether someone genuinely wants to be friends with me. I am way too self-concious and worry far too much about what people think about me, and it makes me wary about friends.
This post is going nowhere. I’m not even asking you if you can tell me whether they do really like me, or just hang around with me because. I just felt like I needed to write it out somewhere to just get it off my chest.