maybe part of the problem is that I fill my time with tv shows, and then feel like I have to get on tumblr and look at pictures and gifs of these shows.

I could be reading. I could be drawing. I could be exploring

When did I ever get so reliant on an internet site? 

I don’t even know how to detox though? - I have blocked the site numerous times for exams, revision and lent, but then I’ve come back on and it’s the same - only one time did I get close to not coming back, as I had the same realisation then, that I am having again now.

I am 19 years old, studying at university. My first year has gone past in a flash, and it only goes quicker - I’m going to have to actually sort my life out soon and be determined to forage a future for myself in the hard economic and career times. I therefore need a great portfolio and experience, and that only comes with lots of work and practicing - am I practicing? - no I’m not. not really. I should practice at least once a day. But I get so easily disheartened with my work. 

I am a perfectionist and it’s hard to be around so many amazing artists and designers and be simulataneously inspired, but then also so put down as you can’t ever get there yourself - 

WRONG. I could get there. Not there because no one’s artwork is ever the same. But to be at a level of quality and actual skill, I could if I work hard and practice. 

I don’t want to just cut tumblr out my life because it has pretty pictures, and is always inspiring me with all it’s illustrators and photography on here. It is fun to let your hair down every now and again and reblog the odd funny gif, or spam a bit of your favourite tv show or film

- tv, film, music, photography, design - they are all out there to inspire our own work, and therefore I don’t want to cut myself off from such a great source; but I should also be inspired by nature, the world, people and what is just outside my bedroom door. 

I need to take in the space and not be so controlled by a website or my laptop. I need freedom to work and improve constantly.

Hopefully by writing this all down I am telling myself to get yo ass into gear and sort yourself out. To put solidity to all the thoughts I have about tumblr and my future.

Hopefully something good will come out of this?

Season 6 Ep 21 - Let it bleed

GET OUT OF MY LIFE.

HOW DARE YOU TAKE LISA’S MEMORIES. NOT OKAY. 

Did you really have Cas take away Ben’s memories as well? I don’t want to even believe it. 

crumples in a pile on the floor

Supernatural Season 6 Ep 10

Cas: It’s very complex. if the pizza man truly loves this babysitter, why does he keep slapping her rear? - Perhaps she has done something wrong.

So, I went to see Star Trek: Into Darkness, FINALLY.

It was really good, a bit slow at the start? I dunno, it definitely picked up though when they started to fight properly and just bish bash bosh - to hide spoilers haha - I would recommend :)

I’m not going to lie, I’m finding it a little bit weird how often the internet, tumblr, gifs and meme’s are being brought up in interviews…like on the red carpet and stuff they are just mentioned to the actors and actresses…hmm.

runs around like a headless chicken

Season 5 Ep8 - Changing Channels

yeahhh buddyyy

I am so exicted. I never had a year 11 prom, and didn’t go to my year 13 prom, so this is like my prom for me, and the way everyone is treating it, it building the excitment quite conciderably. 

It’s all long dresses, classy hair and a bottle of drink.

Bring it on!

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